everyday without pohwei ... it sucks i say it sucks i say it SUCKS . I HATE IT

i got too serious into a relationship where the girl isnt . I got too hurt when everything screwed up. I got no one to turn to after all this happens . Nobody understand the pain in my heart. She isnt serious in this relationship and made me let go . But I know I cant because I really love you. People see me as a happy guy but both you and me know I put on a laughing mask . You were my everything yet I am nothing to you. Whats the point of secrifising so much to exchange something not worth it ? You will be happier without me. Shopping without me pestering by sms or calling you and complaint. All this will stop along with me. We are already not together yet so many unhappy things still occurs. That is because I still love you. You love me but not ready for a serious relationship . So fine , let me be erased in your memory . As friends are as important as a boyfriend that would die for you and give you all you want. Leaving you is the only thing I can do now to prevent myself being hurt anymore .... as well as for you to be more happy . As I know you will never change for me. I will still continue waiting for you until you hold my hand and say ilove to me. But I doubt that would happen .... because you will NEVER put down your friends and go with me . I am all along now .... and you will live happily ever after .

sweetheart is going indus road to repair computer later on if i not wrong. I gotta work ... how I wish I can always be by your side . No matter what happen , tell me and I'll be there . I love you ! Have to sleep now if not later cant wake up and she's gonna call me fat pig ! tsk , goodnight !

Have been working for damn long and my pay so far is 710 . Another 13 more days of work . Payday on 29 or 30 . Gonna spent them all . minimum 25x12 = 300 . so 710+300 = 1010 <-- my minimum pay . Xmas there is double pay ! xmax eve early dismiss and shall see how I'll celebrate . Can finnally wear my formal ! 1 year wear 1 time de shirt , have to wear it more often le . I hope I can celebrate with you , no matter with how many people or in which group , as long as you're there it will be more than enough .

working life sucks. No feel to blog anymore ... no love

life is a miserable when things tend to change but life settles down when everything changed .

today , met pohwei . Thats all .

we quarel day and night . issit too loving or really just quarel . I dontknow what else to say anymore ... because you will never change for me because you never know how I feel